Last year, I used to see a few weird things every once in a while:
1. When I was washing dishes in the kitchen, a person (I think it might have been a male, since it had slightly broad shoulders) was standing by the fridge peeking into the kitchen wearing a black hooded cloak and I couldn’t see its face. We have an archway in front of the fridge (used as decoration and a wine rack) and between the archway and the fridge is a walkway which we use to get into the kitchen. Behind the archway is what used to be a hallway but we tore down the wall and made that archway in its place which makes it a more open space (this archway is really wide) so I could see it from any direction. The "person" was standing in between the hallway, the fridge, and the walkway and peeking into the kitchen either like it was shy or spying. I couldn’t see its face, but I was startled by its appearance, not exactly by the "person". It was just that I didn’t know it was there, y’know? When I turned completely around to face it, it wasn’t there.
2. I was going across the street to get some green tea (I think) from the corner market. Through the corner of my eye, I spotted what looked like a woman dressed in very earthy clothes, with a long, indian-style skirt and shirt set. The skirt was brown and then it faded into a goldenrod color. It had gold stitches in the brown part making some kind of design but I’m not sure what it was. Her shirt was brown, but that’s all I know about it. And I think she was wearing gold hoop earrings. Her hair was pulled into something like a french braid. It was a reddish chestnut color, and the braid was thick so I’m guessing she had a lot of hair. I know it was really long. I couldn’t see her face either (I imagined her having a face since…welll…That’s the normal case for any person…but I don’t think a face was actually there). She reminded me of an earth nymph (well that’s just the thought that came to mind, since I’ve never actually seen a nymph). When I turned around, no one was there. It was on a sunday, so there was absolutely NOBODY outside. Not even a car drove by. Everyone was either inside their houses or at church.
3. Finally, I was depressed for a week since I thought an online friend of mine committed suicide (it turned out he didn’t). During the time I was depressed, I’d wash the dishes at midnight after having spent the entire day on the computer. When I was washing the dishes, I noticed a shadow behind me. I thought it was my younger brother, so I turned around but no one was there. Sometimes I could just sense someone behind me but no one was there. This continued for a few days, and ONLY after midnight. No one seemed present before 12 AM. So one day I felt someone poke my sides (I get really ticklish that way) and I thought it was my brother again, but it wasn’t, he was upstairs on his computer (once that boy gets on the computer, he zones out so I KNOW it’s not him). It happened a few times. Sometimes the "poke" would be at one side, then the other, then both like someone was trying to make me laugh.
Then, at some point, I thought those things were just stupid hallucinations and that I’m paranoid. Actually, I’ve been "paranoid" since I was a little younger than ten years old. I used to lock the bathroom when I used it, check the tub, the closet, and sometimes the drawers, leave the shower curtain open, check my room closets, check behind my mom’s bookshelves, etc. etc. because I always had the feeling that someone was there (even when I locked the doors I thought someone was there).
At some point last year (I was fifteen) I got tired of it and complained about it in my head. No one knew about my "sightings" except my mom, who is a rather spiritual person, but I don’t like talking to her about spirits for various reasons. But after the third sighting (which was when I got tired of spirits) I didn’t see anymore. Thinking about it now, since I understand it a little better, I feel like I don’t mind seeing spirts, though it would take some getting used to. But maybe I was just being paranoid?
Now that I think about it, during those sightings, I didn’t have any friends outside of the internet (I still don’t have any…). Thinking back on it, I kind of get into the habit of thinking those spirits were there to accompany me and I didn’t know it. Even if they weren’t, I appreciate their company now more than I didn back then (hey, it was new to me, what was I supposed to think?).
Does anyone think that I saw genuine spirits?
Does anyone think I’m just insane? (well I guess according to psychology, I can’t be insane since I question my own sanity, but…)
Sorry for writing such an annoyingly long question, but I wanted to make sure the facts and details were there, so maybe it could help.
Also, (It’s unrelated but maybe you can help me figure this out) I get prediction-like dreams. Sometimes they COMPLETELY come true, event after event. So last month I got a strange dream. I just know it was weird, that’s the feeling I had while I was dreaming, but I remember none of it EXCEPT at the end I saw a laptop and white words that said, "With a nod of the head, watch your back." I noticed that lately I’ve been more alert to people around me (not spirits, eheh…) and I feel more catlike, more jumpy and alert. My hearing has gotten sharp when I’m paying attention and I can usually tell when someone is behind me, even if they’re not making a sound. Has anyone got any idea about what’s going on with me?
It’s not like I think I’m some kind of psychic or super hero with some sixth sense powers, I don’t even think seeing spirits in that big of a deal. I just wanted to know if I AM seeing spirits. And I’m getting the feeling that I might like to see a (harmless) one again. Maybe make acquaintences with him/her/it.
Ricky- I don’t think spirits are pixies…I’m pretty sure they’d be there even if I didn’t believe in them.
You don’t have a "gift", you’re just much, much more attentive than the average person. Spirits ARE real and they are everywhere. I know that feeling you described when you said you feel like there are people standing right there, watching you…I’ve had my own share of paranormal encounters myself, but I haven’t ever seen a spirit.
Some of those dreams might be visions of the future. I had a dream once where I saw the same thing happen at least 15 times. It was just these two black triangles gliding through the air and then they sort of split apart into six smaller pieces and they stayed there in the sky until night, and when it got dark they were glowing orange.
So, yes you are insane by society’s standards, but our society’s rules are BS in my opinion.